Been a long while since I posted on here...I have always used this site for expressions of my art be it photography, mixed medium or writing. But due to the nature of my life my writing had become more private than this glass house...
Over the past year I have been through some serious personal trauma (not just drama, but actually trauma). Some was self-inflicted, some was by the shit storms of destruction that surrounded my life. I am finally starting to see a light at the end of this tunnel and its not another oncoming train! No this time it is where I step out into the sun, shed my skin, spread my wings bask in being me again...Soon to take flight!
The loss of a relationship can be heart wrenching and what occurred during that loss is not even remotely normal or typical. I do hope that someday that relationship can be mended more than it currently is, but I have accepted if never will be. During all of this I have been meeting the most amazing people who have helped me through something that nearly destroyed me.
Recently I met a woman. A casual meet, sitting on a park bench on a gorgeous afternoon with a very attractive, vivacious woman who suddenly without warning or provocation pushed every single André button I have! We have an incredibly interesting conversation about how I like to write bad poetry and she loves to sing and write songs and all too soon part. Thinking to myself well that was so much fun I wonder if I will see her again she texts me "Want to hear song I'm singing about you?"
No one has ever done that for me? Let alone sang to me?
THWIP! THWIP! THWIP! (dodging arrows here)
And with a beautiful a cappella voice she sings the first line...I could be your Muse...
An BOOM my mirror neurons are firing synapses like lightening storm on a hot July night! Suddenly I am transported to an ethereal plane, her voice has been softly echoing through my mind. The possibilities are endless, the conversations imagined are fulfilling and other thoughts arise like a volcano waiting to explode!
However her world is very different than mine, it is a deep ocean one am I barely able to wade into? I am uncertain if I could survive there for long without plenty of oxygen, least I drown...
Listening to: my song
Watching: Spring sprung