I have strange coincidences happen but I don't believe in coincidences now synchronicity I do indeed. This is going to be a ramble so bear with me...
Now I am single I find myself with much more time alone than I am used to. This is not necessarily a bad thing but I do tend to crawl up into my head far too much before. Now I am finding myself in the attic of my mind.
I am trying not to read too much into the actions of others that are circling around in the orbits of my life. I keep finding shit gets weird, interesting and typically has something fun for me to figure out after it is all said and done. Right now I am just trying to figure out the intent of my heart, what it wants and what others want from it as well...
Women have such big hearts, but are chaotic dark storms trapped in beautiful bodies and incredibly complex minds. They do not wish to hurt you yet they do not often know what they want or when they want it let alone what you might want! Spontaneity was invented by a woman and time can often be a foreign concept because of this. Often I find myself along these rides with a person I like because they are interesting, nice to look at accompanied with a pleasant and intoxicating aroma, but am I subjecting myself to something out of fear of that lone void that parts of my life have become? Now I like to just jump trains as much as the next chap, but sometimes you just want a nice ride with the motion that puts you comfortably to sleep not a F*cking rollercoaster deathcar hellbound at ever corner!
Do I hide under my desk out of fear of the terror temblor heart-bleed rides or do I just keep chugging along hoping for that long mountain ride with spectacular scenery? Advice? Or are you confused too?
And with that I bid adieu for now...
Listening to: Bela Fleck & Abigail Washburn
Reading: The Alphabet vs. The Goddess
Watching: Leaves change colors
Playing: no more games please
Eating: Grapes of chaos